Hey, it’s been a while.
Three weeks ago, I was struggling with ideas and my direction for this blog, and it got to the point where I was no longer writing for myself. I didn’t enjoy what I was doing, and I sort of hated the blog’s design after looking at it for so long. However, a lot of soul-searching, prayer, and writing advice led me back to the excitement and motivation that I had for this blog over a month ago. As you can see now, I changed up the design just a little bit, wrote in a new tagline, re-vamped my “about” page, and deleted some posts.
Two weeks ago, I attended the first ever ‘Well-Read Black Girl’ Writer’s Conference and Festival in Brooklyn, NY (which I will do a thorough review and reflection soon), and my mind was completely shook at the amount of advice and information I received. The festival also happened at the perfect time because I was feeling really concerned about my writing journey, and I needed to be around a bunch of writers who can show me a way of direction. Now, I get it. Because of this, I decided to no longer post any poetry on my blog. My journey as a writer is solely based on submissions at this moment, and although I’d love to share my work with you, I’d rather it be shown to a wider audience that will develop my reputation as purely a writer, and not just a “blogger.” Within just a month, I learned all about the lifestyles, struggles, and triumphs of bloggers, but not once have I seen one blogger call themselves a writer. I want to be labeled as a writer, and that only requires one thing, write. Write about writing, network with other writers, write about books, submit my writing, and so forth.
Is there a goal or lifestyle that you can’t stop thinking about? How would you feel if someone told you that your goals will never happen? You would feel depressed and upset right? Now, imagine if that “someone” who doubted your goals was yourself. This is something I struggle with, and it has never made my life any better the more I continued to doubt myself. These dreams and goals that I can’t stop thinking about will most likely happen if I do the work. Period. Just do the work. If I have to receive over 100 rejected submissions, just to get that one acceptance, so be it. I never knew what was required or needed to be a writer five years ago, but now I learned the steps, and it’s not easy. I just want to be a writer; to have a book on the shelves one day that will last centuries after I leave this earth. At 23 years old, I’m already thinking about what my legacy should be, and I feel like I’m going towards the right direction with my thinking.
If you have a dream, figure out what you need to do to make it real.
So, I hope that the amount of time I’ve been away and the minor changes didn’t leave you disappointed, but I hope you understand that this is all a part of a journey that I’ve been on for years. We all have journeys that we wish we could rush through or effortlessly accomplish, but sometimes it doesn’t go the way we want it to. What I am excited about is the SoundCloud recordings that I plan to do soon, the amount of submissions I’ll send to various publications, the music playlists that I enjoy listening with you every Friday, and the books I’ll read and share with you. As long as I continue to have dreams of being a New York Times Bestselling Author, I will continue to work hard in order to make that dream a reality.